“Lil’ darlin’, it’s been a long, cold, lonely winter. Lil’ darlin’, it seems like years since it’s been here. But … here comes the sun!”
That George Harrison song has been my earworm for weeks now. We Californians are just not equipped for all the rain we’ve had. Isn’t that why we pay the big bucks to live here – away from all the weather extremes people in other states endure?
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Here We Go Again
I was cleaning out drawers in my office when I came upon something I’d written over six years ago: a listing of specific intentions for changing thought-patterns that were in my way.
Several issues from that time happen to be in my face right now; issues that, in spite of lots of work, have surfaced again and again my whole life.
My first reaction was to be totally discouraged and frustrated with myself: What was wrong with me? What about all my tools and resources? What about all those sessions for myself? Why so little progress? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah …
Eventually I calmed down, stepped back, and eventually another angle presented itself.
This was, after all, about core issues. Everyone has core issues. It comes with being human. For “Beatrice” it’s poor body image; for “Mary” it’s abandonment; for “Phil” it’s the drive to take responsibility for everyone and everything; for “Yvonne” it’s insecurity; for “Emily” it’s scarcity; for me it's often victimhood in some form or another.
Almost by definition core issues are those we work on, think we’ve eliminated, and come face to face with again … and again … and again. This is the proverbial onion that reveals yet another layer long after you’re ready to throw it away.
Time moves on, we move on. So it's impossible for the issues to be exactly the same. I had to stop beating myself up in order to see that, of course. Detachment offered me the higher perspective to recognize how far I've come in the six years since composing that original list -- a journey along the ol’ Sacred Spiral of life that brings me closer and closer into alignment with my Higher Self.
Several issues from that time happen to be in my face right now; issues that, in spite of lots of work, have surfaced again and again my whole life.
My first reaction was to be totally discouraged and frustrated with myself: What was wrong with me? What about all my tools and resources? What about all those sessions for myself? Why so little progress? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah …
Eventually I calmed down, stepped back, and eventually another angle presented itself.
This was, after all, about core issues. Everyone has core issues. It comes with being human. For “Beatrice” it’s poor body image; for “Mary” it’s abandonment; for “Phil” it’s the drive to take responsibility for everyone and everything; for “Yvonne” it’s insecurity; for “Emily” it’s scarcity; for me it's often victimhood in some form or another.
Almost by definition core issues are those we work on, think we’ve eliminated, and come face to face with again … and again … and again. This is the proverbial onion that reveals yet another layer long after you’re ready to throw it away.
Time moves on, we move on. So it's impossible for the issues to be exactly the same. I had to stop beating myself up in order to see that, of course. Detachment offered me the higher perspective to recognize how far I've come in the six years since composing that original list -- a journey along the ol’ Sacred Spiral of life that brings me closer and closer into alignment with my Higher Self.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Wasting Time
I have had a heck of a time staying on task lately. I have a pile of stuff I need to do: forms required by the company that handles my business credit card charges, balancing my business checkbook, entering my AmEx charges on my Quickbooks program, two more condolence cards to write, on-line e-book tutorials to catch up on before the program expires at the end of the month ... just to name a few. I haven't even wanted to read emails, let alone respond to them.
What have I been doing instead when I'm not seeing clients at my office? Playing solitaire. And not an interesting, challenging, mind-expanding-strategic solitaire but stupid Vegas-style-mainly-chance solitaire. I click on the icon and off I go into a strange limbo-land where my eyes get drier and drier, my body stiffer and stiffer, my mind more and more blank.
Ah, yes, the blankness! It occurs to me that in spite of a daily hour-long handwriting practice and three yoga classes a week, my games of solitaire are the closest I get to meditation these days.
In retrospect, I think it was the earthquake in Haiti that put me over the top. Avoiding any and all news coverage of the disaster, I made the donation and just kept going.
Processing heartache seems to be taking all my disposable energy these days. Solitaire, anyone?
What have I been doing instead when I'm not seeing clients at my office? Playing solitaire. And not an interesting, challenging, mind-expanding-strategic solitaire but stupid Vegas-style-mainly-chance solitaire. I click on the icon and off I go into a strange limbo-land where my eyes get drier and drier, my body stiffer and stiffer, my mind more and more blank.
Ah, yes, the blankness! It occurs to me that in spite of a daily hour-long handwriting practice and three yoga classes a week, my games of solitaire are the closest I get to meditation these days.
In retrospect, I think it was the earthquake in Haiti that put me over the top. Avoiding any and all news coverage of the disaster, I made the donation and just kept going.
Processing heartache seems to be taking all my disposable energy these days. Solitaire, anyone?
Hello from the Andes
I met Lilo Selven nearly 20 years ago when we were both enrolled at the Palo Alto School of Hypnotherapy. Born in Switzerland, Lilo spent her early years as an international model. We joined forces in L & L Enterprises, creating and presenting some wonderful workshops together.
Lilo answered an inner call from Peru about ten years ago. Her healing center just outside of Cusco, Casa de Serenidad, draws people from all over the world. She is one of the most loving, resilient and optimistic people I have ever met. In the aftermath of torrential rains and mudslides in Lilo's area, here is a recent email from her, reprinted with her permission:
Dear friends - thanks so much for caring and sending healing prayers and meditations to the people in the Andes.
We here at the "Casa" are ok. so far, we had less rain and some beautiful, sunny days again. I moved back to my facilities to sleep at night, but we are not out of danger. I have been very involved in making a difference in this very ignorant consciousness around here. The association finally built some kind of a barrier at the most crucial spot right above my facilities, where there have been continously mud and rocks coming down. Yesterday about 50 people came up to that site, the major of Cusco and other VIP's, including the whole media. Now it's all over the news, that the association of Santa Maria and the community of Larapa below us could be in great danger due to this new openning/crack way up on my sacred mountain and a possible major land-slide if we have more haevy rainfalls. There are finally some studies on their way about the facts and possible dangers. Of course, there are always unknown factors, since Mother Nature has her own way to cleanse and let go.
Lots of Lightwork, prayers and keeping Faith keeps me going. I refuse to believe that the mountain of "Apu MachuPicol", (see picture in my web-site under "Accomodation and Location") which is my greatest ally and guardian and has called me to this sacred site to built a sanctuary for humanity will not protect all around here. The beauty in all of this is that this event has been alterting many who were asleep about the forces of nature and ongoing changes and that the need for humanity to pull together as "One" is crucial for its survival and in order to make a difference. In the end it serves as a heart-opening event, like all other challenges and disaster occuring on this planet at this time in history.
Please keep us in your heart and prayers. A heartfelt "thank you" to all and many blessings,
Lilo Ccoyllor
www.shamanspirit.net
'CASA DE LA SERENIDAD'
Spiritual and Shamanic Retreat
Asociacion Santa Maria P-8, San Sebastian
CUSCO - PERU
Phone (51-84)792224 - Cell-phone (51-84)-984671867
www.shamanspirit.net
Lilo answered an inner call from Peru about ten years ago. Her healing center just outside of Cusco, Casa de Serenidad, draws people from all over the world. She is one of the most loving, resilient and optimistic people I have ever met. In the aftermath of torrential rains and mudslides in Lilo's area, here is a recent email from her, reprinted with her permission:
Dear friends - thanks so much for caring and sending healing prayers and meditations to the people in the Andes.
We here at the "Casa" are ok. so far, we had less rain and some beautiful, sunny days again. I moved back to my facilities to sleep at night, but we are not out of danger. I have been very involved in making a difference in this very ignorant consciousness around here. The association finally built some kind of a barrier at the most crucial spot right above my facilities, where there have been continously mud and rocks coming down. Yesterday about 50 people came up to that site, the major of Cusco and other VIP's, including the whole media. Now it's all over the news, that the association of Santa Maria and the community of Larapa below us could be in great danger due to this new openning/crack way up on my sacred mountain and a possible major land-slide if we have more haevy rainfalls. There are finally some studies on their way about the facts and possible dangers. Of course, there are always unknown factors, since Mother Nature has her own way to cleanse and let go.
Lots of Lightwork, prayers and keeping Faith keeps me going. I refuse to believe that the mountain of "Apu MachuPicol", (see picture in my web-site under "Accomodation and Location") which is my greatest ally and guardian and has called me to this sacred site to built a sanctuary for humanity will not protect all around here. The beauty in all of this is that this event has been alterting many who were asleep about the forces of nature and ongoing changes and that the need for humanity to pull together as "One" is crucial for its survival and in order to make a difference. In the end it serves as a heart-opening event, like all other challenges and disaster occuring on this planet at this time in history.
Please keep us in your heart and prayers. A heartfelt "thank you" to all and many blessings,
Lilo Ccoyllor
www.shamanspirit.net
'CASA DE LA SERENIDAD'
Spiritual and Shamanic Retreat
Asociacion Santa Maria P-8, San Sebastian
CUSCO - PERU
Phone (51-84)792224 - Cell-phone (51-84)-984671867
www.shamanspirit.net
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