When I returned from the 6-Day TAT (Tapas Acupressure Technique) Symposium, I felt like a new person: light, free, happy in ways I hadn't even imagined possible for me. My work with clients this week has been phenomenal and I know that this is a direct result of the healing I had.
But as the days pass, I'm noticing an undercurrent of unsettledness.
Evidently (as Grandma would say)
the shift from suffering/struggling to the new paradigm is not happening
smoothly but rather in fits and starts. There's a part of me that is clinging desperately to the old fears and chaos -- I can feel it and I can see it in my mind's eye.
Many of us have such a history of change ending up very, very
badly -- even resulting in death. Such deep neural pathways!
But change doesn't have to result in
the worst. It can absolutely result in
the best, right? What a concept! A brand new concept that is just not quite the default yet.
When I can take a few steps back and look at it all from that Hawk's perspective, it's richly fascinating. In it, not so much :-)
I'll let you know how it goes.
