Changing the Default Settings

When I returned from the 6-Day TAT (Tapas Acupressure Technique) Symposium, I felt like a new person:  light, free, happy in ways I hadn't even imagined possible for me.  My work with clients this week has been phenomenal and I know that this is a direct result of the healing I had.

 

But as the days pass, I'm noticing an undercurrent of unsettledness.   

 

Evidently (as Grandma would say) the shift from suffering/struggling to the new paradigm is not happening smoothly but rather in fits and starts. There's a part of me that is clinging desperately to the old fears and chaos -- I can feel it and I can see it in my mind's eye.

 

 

Many of us have such a history of change ending up very, very badly -- even resulting in death.  Such deep neural pathways!

 

But change doesn't have to result in the worst.  It can absolutely result in the best, right?  What a concept!  A brand new concept that is just not quite the default yet.

 

When I can take a few steps back and look at it all from that Hawk's perspective, it's richly fascinating.  In it, not so much :-)

 

So, when I finish this post, I will be doing a full TAT session with myself, engaging this stubbornly fearful part that's only comfortable in chaos.

 

I'll let you know how it goes.

 

One of Those Weeks

I can't say I'm sorry to see this week end.

My client calendar was completely full when I began the week but with one thing or another, I was left with lots and lots of empty spaces. 

I still haven't heard from my Tuesday 10:30 am client who has been coming regularly and yet just didn't show up.  No response to my email, calls or texts.  I'm doing my best to stay in the mindset that he's just having as weird a week as I am and not in a ditch somewhere.

One new client who was supposed to have her first appointment with me yesterday at 3:45 forgot to tell me that she'd started with another practitioner the week before.

But as crazy as the whole week has been, today really stands out.  When I left for yoga at 9 am this morning, I had three sessions scheduled this afternoon.  By the time my class was over 90 minutes later, I had zero. 

Mercury's not retrograde but I understand that solar flare activity was particularly dramatic.  Do I have to start keeping track of that now too?

Okay, Lucy Grace, take a deep, deep breath, and just begin to relaxxxxx ....